April 23, 2013

I can not believe how fast my mission is going!! Its already been a month!?! It's good to hear from everyone! 
This week has been kinda of a rough week! But it turned out to be one of the best too. I kind of hit a wall when it came to learning the language and just felt like I was not progressing as fast as I had the past couple weeks with everything. I kept on praying for help to get over this hump so I could just keep on working my hardest and help people. My answer came at a time and place where the answer did not really fit the atmosphere. In priesthood meeting, I was sitting there and a thought of me wrestling popped into my head!! It took me by suprise and I just sat there thinking about that. I came to the realization that it was an answer to my prayers in this way. During my first 3 years of wrestling I went to practice everyday, I did most of the drills I worked hard. But I  progressed slowly those 3 years. It was not until my senior year, until I put all my time, all my effort and all of my heart into the sport that I accomplished something that I did not think was possible. The thought hit me that I did not want my whole mission to be like my first 3 years of wrestling but that I wanted to achieve a lot more and I learn that I can do hard things.  I have to just buckle down and work. It's going to be tough, I know that but when I look back on wrestling it was tough my senior year but it was so worth it. I know what I am aiming for this time is not just a medal but something of far, far, far greater importance.  It is for me to come unto Christ so that I can have eternal life, but then also to see the joy of others as they have this same feeling of joy and happiness and peace that I have. If it wasn't for this comfort this message gave me, I would have just buckled under the pressure and stress I had later that night. It seemed like every companionship had something going wrong that night. I was the only one not fighting or crying. The Lord helped me to work through with all the problems in the Zone as a leader. I have had to have more patience than I ever had before in my life. Being Zone leader is not an easy job, but I was helped beyond my own strength and I am truely grateful for that. The Lord loves each and every one of us. 
Oh how I love my life right now. Our investigators are coming along just fine. Last night we taught a lesson. Me and Elder Masame just froze, we couldn't speak but with what we could speak we felt the spirit, Roy felt it too. The spirit is the one who converts I can testify of that. 
For our devotional we were priviliged to have Elder Richard G. Scott come and speak to us. Just the spirit that he brought. At the end of his talk he gave me an apostolic blessing (well the whole MTC), that We would master the language, that we would become closer to our companions and that we would become close to Christ. 
I just want to leave with my testimony. 
Alam ko po na, that Jesus Christ died for us. That he died for me and YOU.  He did not die for just everyone but YOU personally. He has helped me so much and I turn every little problem over to him. I have faith that if you pray to your Heavenly Father that he will answer you, He is there and loves you. But you have to seek the answers. If you want to talk to God get on your knees but if you want God to Talk to you Open the Scriptures. I can testify of that. Oh how I love the gospel. This next week should be amazing !!!! 
Mahal Kital  
Mahal, 
Elder Bigelow