Last email from the States!
So these past couple days have been really really important to me. I figured out that I have been going about my mission completely wrong. I have been kind of selfish these past couple weeks. I have been worried about what I am going to get out of my mission and what I can become. That is the worst way you can look at it. Even though I was looking at a mission as a way to come closer to Christ and to become a better Father, which are good things, but its not what a mission is about. It is for bringing people to Christ. It has nothing, absolutely nothing about me. Nothing. I need to focus on the investigators solely. Its truly shaped the way I have looked at my mission. Also, if I can be honest, I am scared out of my mind to go to the Philippines. But I am not going to let that stop me because I can do HARD things. I look back on experiences in my life like HellsGate, West Clear Creek, Wrestling Practices, and all the camp outs I went on to Black River. Just everything has prepared me for this. That's how ang Ama Salingit answered my prayers. It was by those thoughts and they brought me great, great comfort. Heavenly Father put me here for a reason and I know there are people going about their everyday business not knowing how much happier the gospel can make their lives. I am the one, through the Lord, that is going to bring it to them. There is a lot of weight on my shoulders, but Jesus knows and is helping me everyday as I pray to him for help. I am not going to let him or myself down. I know that I can NOT do this on my own. Kalinging natin ang Ama Salangit at JesuCristo. I love everyone in the zone (all of them.) I love my companion and I love the Lord. Through Jesus Crist I am ready to go share the Gospel. I love him. This is my testimony sa pangalan ni JesuCristo, Amen.
Mahal ko Tayo.
Love Elder Bigelow
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